Is procrastination the same as being lazy?

I know how you feel. You eat a lot, you sit on the couch and watch tv, you snack late at night and watch movies, you eat way too much at breakfast, lunch and dinner, you do not exercise, and then you complain about how you look and how you are feeling inside. You start seeing your body changing, your libido lowering and your mood having a bipolar crisis. Believe me, I have been there, and millions of people have felt this way at least once, twice or maybe three times in their life time.

You start looking at yourself in the mirror, you start noticing your clothes do not fit, you start feeling low, depressed, different, you just start thinking that nobody will notice you, or that your partner is not attracted to you anymore, or that other people are gonna make fun of you because of the way you look. You start isolating yourself because you feel insecure inside and out, you start feeling lonely, you start hating yourself for going too far, for letting your body reach rock bottom. But my question to you is, is this vanity? Is this because you wanna be a super model? Is this because you wanna look like the girl in the cover of a magazine? or is this because you wanna be healthy? Is this because you wanna be stronger? Is this because you wanna accomplish something for yourself? Is this because you wanna earn happiness by working on yourself? Ask yourself because if you really do not know the answer, then you are not ready, then you do not know what you want for YOU.

You see, I have a great story that will, perhaps, make you think twice about being ready to make a change. I am from Venezuela, and I used to weight 45 kilos back then, when I was a teenager. I used to eat everything I wanted and never gained weight, I was not an athlete; therefore, I never exercised. Then I moved to Canada, you know how these people eat, and where they eat, right? well I went through that same path you might be in, eating at restaurants often, eating junk food at any time of the day and night, and all of sudden I looked in the mirror and said "Wow, where did this come from?" it was right there in front of me the evidence of not taking care of myself, the evidence of "You must not love yourself enough." I am not telling you it was bad, I mean I gained probably 5 to 6 kilos, my clothes did not fit, and I had to throw out tons of jeans and underwear, shirts and shorts. The fact that I did not become obese, does not mean that I did not feel proud of myself for letting myself go somewhere I did not want to go, I really felt different in many ways.

I moved to another city, and started studying and eating junk food very often, I started feeling low, I started feeling tired, no energy at all, and my libido was down too. I started feeling sad for myself, which is not the right way to feel about your body, and I started crying lots because I wanted a change, but I never stop eating and I never started working out, so I asked to myself "Why are you crying? you are doing absolutely nothing to change." So I starting dancing at home, I made the effort everyday to motivate myself and eat better, but that motivation faded away because to me it was boring to do the same thing everyday. I started feeling shame of my body, putting clothes on was a nightmare because I knew it looked tight, it just did not fit my body type at all. I cried one day to my now husband, desperate to magically have a smocking hot body, and he sat me down and said "You are not a super model, you are not a fitness model, you have a wonderful body, but if you want to change it you gotta work hard, you gotta change your diet, you gotta earn it, it will not appear magically, and you will not see results in a week either, you have to be patient." Since that day, I knew I had to change my mentality, and start taking care of myself.

Months later, I joined the gym, and I do amazing classes such as: Bodypump, Bodyflow, RPM, Zumba and Bodystep. These classes keep me going, these classes are making me stronger, every single day. I started eating way better, of course slowly trying to cut back all those cravings for sugar, and the bad habit of eating late at night. I am telling you it is so hard to change what you are used to do, but you have to set your mind for it, you have to change your ways, you have to think of the goal you wanna accomplish, you have to work harder and motivate yourself everyday. This is something YOU can do, this is something YOU can reach, this is something that YOU can gain. Quit dreaming about it, quit hoping, quit staring at people and wishing you had what they have, quit stopping yourself from working out, quit the EXCUSES, I have heard it all before, and I have heard myself enough. I am telling you again, if you say you do not have time to workout, but you do have time to sit on the couch for an hour and watch tv, seriously, you can use that whole hour to workout, to sweat, to make that fat burn. Think about it, I made the change, are you willing to do this for YOU?